mixed bag
My mind has felt a little like these random photos recently. It seems to be full of all things, all at once. We’ve been cleaning and organizing our home, getting rid of clutter and taking things out of closets. So many secret treasures are hiding in boxes. The end of summer has been full of birthdays and gatherings and yet I’m feeling more antisocial than ever. I wish fall were here already, the heat makes me anxious. These past few weeks have not just signaled the change of yearly cycles, but also a change in life seasons. New excitement is peeking over the horizon. New challenges are drifting in with the wind. Summer lacked direction while now deadlines are looming over me. Everything all at once.
Even the words I write here are scatterbrained. I don’t have just one neat thing to share. I wish I did. I have been struggling with where I want this blog to go, what I want it to be. It’s just for me, so it can be whatever I want but how much of myself do I want to share? How many of my worries and ponderings do I want to put out into the world? How much self reflection is appropriate for public consumption? I’m still trying to figure it out.
My own scattered response: it means a lot to be able to hear the worries, in whatever form they come. Your black kitty is adorable. It turns out my black kitty, who we’ve had for a year, is in fact very dark brown. What is that delicious creamy looking thing?
in reverse: the creamy things were tiramisu made for my mother’s birthday. and hooray for black kitties. sometimes weetzie looks just dark brown, or a reddish black. she has just a few white hairs which i love. i think i just have to figure out a way to address worries without being too specific or maybe that doesn’t matter. i’m not sure.
In order:
1) tiramisu. Yum.
2) That’s what we thought about Moose, too, but the vet said that he’s the color of a Burmese, though isn’t one. He was named Chococat when we got him from the shelter, so maybe we should have known.
3) I guess it depends on who is reading. It seems to me sometimes, though we hardly ever email for real, that its easier for you to be open here, and maybe that is something to use as you need to.
This. All of this. Thanks for helping me feel less…chaotic.
I think that feeling’s in the jetstream. I’m feeling it too, and just hoping that with September’s turning, vague things will start resolving into clarity, and stubborn things will come unstuck. I always find that unsettling times foreshadow wonderful events and productivity. I hope it’s true for you!
Feeling that way too! What to share and what not too…
Yum to tiramisu, did you make it? (can you post the recipe?)
Black cats are great, my black kitty Ahab also looks reddish brown in the sun!
I RECOGNIZE THAT DESSERT!!! you really make the loveliest tiramisu.
I am totally reassessing what I want online and what I don’t. Such a hard question to answer.